Saturday, October 15, 2011

this is me grown

The first two pages of Sophie's Choice by William Styron are brilliant. Written retrospectively (and almost autobiographically) as a glimpse into the life of a 20-year-old aspiring writer, the paragraphs echo the confusion and frustration often felt by most post-grads transitioning from four comfortable college years into a career/adulthood. He writes,
I was glad to be shut out of my job-the first and only salaried position, excluding the military, of my life-even though its loss seriously undermined my already modest solvency. Also, I now think it was constructive to learn so early in life that I would never fit in as an office worker, anytime, anywhere. In fact, considering how I had so coveted the job in the first place, I was rather surprised at the relief, indeed the alacrity, with which I accepted my dismissal only five months later.
But while Stingo used his time after work to pursue his literary career, I went to Bonnaroo. I don't regret going, and I learned some very important life lessons plus a crash course in how to handle ridiculously self-important hipsters, but I don't know if it's going to be novel worthy 20 years from now. Unless someone I met there becomes ridiculously famous and has a downward drug spiral with a cataclysmic suicide that catapults a posthumous music career.


Wearing: cropped brocade jacket by H&M, floral applique top by Y3, satin pants by Stella McCartney x H&M (second design collab done by H&M!), leopard belt by ASOS, Pigalle Plato 120 by Christian Louboutin

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  1. I felt the same way graduating university... I worked in a coffee shop for minimum wage when I had a BFA in Visual Arts! Four years of my life spent getting that degree, for what? Then I got married, then pregnant, and the maternity leave was such a relief. Now, when my baby naps I work on art that will be exhibited in January. Lots of work, but I'd rather be doing this, now, than making lattes all day.

    p.s. Suuuuper classy outfit! Wow, those pants. Wow.

  2. I'm ashamed to say I never read Sophie's Choice. If I know a book is going to be sad - I won't read it. I know that's horrible!

    I love that brocade jacket! I would have never guessed it was H&M.

  3. oh god i'm surrounded by those hipsters here.

  4. Describing my post-grad days as confusing would be an understatement, it was chaotic, I do miss those days though. Bonaroo sounds like a lot of fun, much better than being in a cubicle... Love the brocade jacket.

    Liz Lizo

  5. You have beautiful style, and beautiful website, plus, you have the Balenciaga boots!!!And the Burberry wedges!!! how can I not loving you!:D

  6. hi,

    i really love the design of the blog with the kitty mask....we are kitty lovers..hahaha.

    i am glad you are healthy now. and it's such a nice post at the thanksgiving time.